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About A Woman’s Right to Choose to Break Up With a Perfectly Good Man

December 11th, 2012 Leave a comment Go to comments

For once, I didn’t want to be right. My gut was telling me something was wrong, she was acting distant and cold, but I didn’t want to think it had anything to do with me. Certainly I didn’t deserve the treatment, as many times as I asked her what was wrong, she came up with gibberish.

When I broke down the way my girlfriend was treating me to a friend of mine, someone who didn’t know her well, but with whom I felt comfortable confiding, she set me straight. “She’s treating you the way you guys treat girls you don’t like or don’t want to be with.” Her diagnosis was a wake up call.

I called my girlfriend, attempted small talk before delving into the bigger issue. But she wasn’t even up for chit-chat and tried to get off the phone as quickly as she got on it. That’s when I said, “Okay, this is ridiculous. What’s your problem? Why are you treating me like this?” She was caught off guard by my bluntness. There was silence, then I could hear a crack in her voice. She admitted she didn’t know exactly what was wrong, whether it was her or me, but something between us didn’t sit well with her and she wanted some time to herself to think about it.

A week later, in a park not far from her apartment, we sat down on a bench. There, she broke up with me.

I was a full grown man and the news made me cry like a baby. I was shocked, hurt, and upset. Here I thought this was the woman for me, and I treated her as such. I don’t know if I did everything right, but I damn sure didn’t shoot myself in the foot. The self-destructive tendencies I fell victim to in most relationships were off the table. I wanted to be this woman’s man and I didn’t want to mess it up.

I pressed in search for concrete, tangible things I did or said that made her look at me and us and say, “No, he’s not the one I thought he would be.” She didn’t have any. She certainly didn’t find any evidence that led her to believe I was being unfaithful or dishonest, because I wasn’t. So as you can imagine, I was quite confused.

It took me a while to realize there didn’t need to be a definitive reason for her not wanting to be with me. And I’m ashamed to admit, part of that had to do with me underestimating a woman’s ability to choose to be single and her need for more time before she settles down.

I needed to be broken up with to remind myself women don’t always want what we think they want. A part of my pain was induced by the blow my pride took. I could not believe after loving this woman to the best of my ability she still did not want to be with me. But when I stopped searching for things I did wrong and started replaying the things she said to me, I began to better understand, she was treating me the way guys treat girls they don’t like or with whom they no longer want.

One of the most frustrating things about moving on was when people asked me what happened between her and I. Though many asked me what I did wrong, jokingly, they found it hard to believe I did nothing to deserve it. That wasn’t only insensitive to me (because I really did not do anything to provoke being broken up with, which doesn’t make her perfect, but I digress), that was insulting to her.

Sometimes, when I talk to guys who tell me they’re hesitant to commit to a woman who they know is good to them and really cares about them, I tell them to give her what she wants up front. I tell them if they’re not afraid of her changing her mind and wanting to end things in 3-6 months, he should give her all of him and watch what happens. In 3-6 months, she may be surprised to find out she doesn’t want it anymore. Women, like men, only think they want what they don’t have. That kind of thinking is not exclusive to gender, it’s human nature.

There’s this idea we have that women want to be in relationships and it’s so surface. We believe all a woman desires or dreams about is a good man who will come home to her and her alone at the end of a long day, who only has eyes for her and only wants to be with her. We believe all a woman wants is a boyfriend who she can bring around her friends and family and say, “This man is the one.”

That kind of thinking is short-sighted and seen on TV. We have to stop believing relationships are what every woman wants. Women like to be single too. We also have to stop thinking even if relationships are what they want, they may not want such things with us.

Women have options. You can give me numbers to show me otherwise, but I prefer to date highly desirable women for whom the numbers don’t apply. The type of woman who is single for not only a reason, but her own reasons, that’s the woman I like.

One thing I can say about my girlfriend, she didn’t believe in all the statistics that said she’d be lucky to find a man who wanted to marry her. She wasn’t looking for a man. Instead she found me, thought she wanted differently, gave it a shot, and decided it wasn’t for her. So it’s back to the bachelorette life for her. Her and I are friends now, and though I don’t know all the details about her current dating life, I’m pretty sure non-existent isn’t a word she would use to describe it.

I have broken up with more women who have broken up with me, but I like to remind people me being single isn’t entirely my fault. I could have been with this woman or that woman, and when they ask me why I’m not I tell them the truth: She didn’t want to be with me.

That’s fine. It happens. What’s not fine is acting like it can’t happen, and acting like a woman’s feelings can’t change.

Admittedly, the relationship I am speaking about was rushed into. Our foundation was shoddy, to say the least, and built hastily. But I believed we could prevail and the fact that it didn’t took me aback all because she was a woman, and I once thought when I’m ready to be with a woman, that woman will be just as ready. She was born ready.

My girlfriend wasn’t crazy for breaking up with a man like me. I was crazy for thinking a man like me is something she wanted simply because she was a woman. Maybe I did do something wrong, but to say such a thing is shortchanging her ability to make her own decisions. Maybe she didn’t want to be in a relationship at all? After all, she remains single. Maybe she wanted to be with someone else? This is also a possibility. Either way one thing was certain during our breakup conversation: Through her tears, she said, “I don’t know what I want.” I told her, “I know you don’t want me.” Sometimes, that’s all a woman needs to know.

These days when I date, I don’t carry with me the pain of the breakup, but I definitely keep the lesson close. I like to remind a woman, we need to take our time not only so I can figure out if she is who I want, but so she can figure out if she wants me, a perfectly good man.

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  • Elle

    Having just broken up with a “nice guy” who told me on numerous occasions that he planned to marry me (which I, after some time, started to side-eye him on whenever he mentioned it), I know that it can be particularly hard on the man – he didn’t take it well at all. The difference was, he was full of those self-destructive tendencies that you’d avoided in your relationship (no idea whether he’d been that way with other women, as I’m having to re-think everything he ever told me that made him out to be the Victim in the relationships – let’s just say his actions with me were in complete MISalignment with his words. Guessing now that this is his “nice guy MO”); and yet he felt he’d been the perfect partner. Sometimes what we THINK we’re doing right, we ain’t did right a’tall.

    I feel for you; but it’s great that you recognize the lesson in the sitch and have shifted your perspective to accommodate that knowing. Peace.

  • Na Na

    I too have just broken up with a “good guy”. Good in the sense of no cheating, beating and stealing. However I was being pushed to be the more dominant mate, that’s not cool with me. So after 8 months in, we talked about it, stayed together 4 more months when I realized that’s just his personality and it doesn’t make him wrong….but it doesn’t make me want to be the bread winner and head of household either.

    When I broke up with him…….he too cried like a baby!

  • T

    I think this is a great article and wish more men and women would understand this. I had a good man and a lot of women could not believe that “I let that good man get away”. But I constantly remind women that while he may be a “good man” he is not the right good man for me.

  • Keli25

    You said the foundation of your relationship was shoddy and built hastily, which is the real reason why it didn’t work out. If the foundation isn’t strong of course its not gonna last. “How you get em is how you lose em”, remember that.

  • Anon

    Thanks….This was another confirmation for me that it’s ok to leave and not know why but you know you feel something isn’t quite right.

  • http://twitter.com/tessism Tessism

    So very well thought out and written. I appreciate your examination and speaking a truth that we often overlook.

  • monique

    very well written and heartfelt, jozen. i like it when you put yourself an your personal experiences on the table for us to learn from. thank you.

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  • http://twitter.com/sylquesaid fixedwater

    I’ve dated a few good men, but they weren’t the man for me. And when I determined that I ended things. I don’t believe in wasting my time or others’ time. Let me let you go so that you can be with someone who is good and right for you, and I can too.

  • http://www.facebook.com/juachi.obi Juachi Obi

    this made me feel better… I hope my ex understands this someday…

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    Passion the mortar, a forever bond you and I cemented. However brief the love affair the friendship continues to get stronger everyday. By the way, the Tower of Pisa was built on shoddy ground needless to stay it still
    stands, not perfect but special, valuable, and celebrated…

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  • all lies

    honest my ass whats so funny is listening to someone lie when you already know the truth

  • Fred

    I can relate .. He makes me feel dominant and I find it hard. (not in monetary terms or anything like that). but I’m never challenged, I have to make decisions most times and I know he thinks he’s just trying to make me happy. But he wasn’t always like that, he used to be an alpha-male; that’s what attracted me to him. Then he became a baby, and I dunno how to relate anymore.

  • TheTruth

    Women don’t want good men like us that are still Single, but then again most women Stink nowadays anyway.